[Intro] As per Nathan's request, Tamber al-Acorrin arranges to have Kevlan get an appointment with the medic, now that he is transferring over to the Psychology department. Unfortunately, the new psychologist hasn't yet moved into his new office, and so, the exhausted Sorter must escort his friend directly to Nathan's suite on level 2..... ---------- Tamber knocks on Nathan's Suite. From Nathan's Suite, Nathan calls out "Come in...". (To respond: '+answer Nathan's Suite=') Tamber steps inside the door leading to Nathan's rooms. Tamber has left. The door slides open, and you step inside. Nathan's Suite The huge windows look out into a world of strange beauty. A veritable forest of coral branches rises just outside the window, with brilliantly multicolored fish darting here and there through it. Strands of seaweed sway to and fro, and soft rays of the sun breaking through the surface of the water above illuminate the whole scene. A large pool takes up half the room, with a dolphin swimming to and fro inside. A drying wetsuit hangs on the pool's edge. A bed, dresser, desk and a terminal complete the view. The illusion of being in one of Aqua Vivendis's undersea habitats is almost complete, except for the unsightly bulge of a small holoprojector that is creating the illusion in the first place. Contents: Tamber(#1213Pep) Nathan Catering Unit Radiant Bath Obvious exits: Nathan's Office Out Tamber steps into the room first, bringing with him a frightened-looking Kevlan. Nathan smiles from his seat by the desk. "Hi, folks. Come on in, make yourselves at home." Tamber looks tired, and ragged around the eyes, but more alert than his young companion, as he says earnestly, "Good Nathan, I pray we are not disturbing you at this hour... but we were directed to come to you by the psychology personnel... " Tamber turns to Kevlan and nudges his shoulder gently. "Come, dear boy, he will not bite." Kevlan shoves long bangs out of his eyes, blinks once, and nods slowly, venturing after Tamber as the Sorter moves further into the room. Tamber finishes, gesturing at Kevlan for Nathan, "You did say you wished to see him at your earliest opportunity." Nathan nods, leaning forward in his seat. "How're you feeling, Kev?" Kevlan shyly scuffs a toe at what appears to be 'sand', then he slides a glance to the holo-projector and seems to think, 'Oh... ' At the question, he starts a little, and blushes deeply. "Ah-Ah-Ah... " Nathan calmly waits for Kevlan to finish stammering. Tamber presses his eyes closed for a moment, in an apparent look of tired resignation, but as soon as Kevlan looks at him frightenedly, his face is serenity itself. He asks Nathan, lowly, "If we may sit...?" Too honest to lie, Kevlan finally mutters embarrassedly in the direction of the floor, "Ah-Ah-Ah feel kinda funny." Nathan raises an eyebrow at Tamber. "I did say to make yourselves at home. Pull up a chair, there's one under the edge of the pool. Kev, you can sit on the bed." Tamber in a gesture that seems a little rote pats Kevlan's shoulder and steers him in the direction Nathan indicates, before he sinks into the suggested chair. Tamber half-smiles, then, looking slightly embarrassed with himself, but he nods graciously. "Our thanks... " Kevlan lowers himself awkwardly down onto the bedcorner, his hands unconsciously fidgeting with one another. Nathan nods at Tamber. "Ordinarily, I'd ask you to wait outside for a little while... but this is a special case, so I'll suspend that. I don't think I need to tell you that anything that happens here is sub rosa, do I?" Nathan's about 5'8"... short-cropped, somehow slick-looking black hair, dark eyes staring at you alertly from a deeply tanned face, a crooked smile above a close-cropped black beard. His left arm is held at a funny angle and a twisted mass of scars shows through where his sleeve rode up on his wrist. He moves slowly, with deliberation. A squarish black medikit is fastened to his right forearm with velcro straps. Nathan's wearing a simple but well-patterned dark blue jacket, with pants that match it almost precisely. Both show signs of wear. The golden meditech's caduceus pinned to the lapel of his jacket throws back brilliant highlights. Tamber answers, his voice still rather softer than usual, as if he's putting out less effort than usual to speak, "I shall be the very soul of silence... " He blinks for a moment, looking slightly distracted. Nathan nods, looking at Tamber searchingly for a moment, then turns to Kevlan. "Kev... when you say you feel sort of funny... what do you mean? Can you explain?" Your thoughts often turn to your last cut of crystal. Non-singers around you see: You feel tense as Kevlan paces and become more and more irrational and moody. Kevlan mutters timidly, "T-T-Tam pr-promised t' stay... " He looks scared for a moment, flicking a glance at the door, but belatedly realizes that Nathan is letting his friend do just that. Blushing again, and still fidgeting, he mumbles sadly, "C-c-cain't think too good." Tamber settles himself to listen quietly. Nathan smiles softly. "That's perfectly all right, Kev. Just try to explain, and don't worry about how good your thinking is. Kevlan looks abashedly down at his hands, and grabs at one with the other, but a moment after he stills them, one of his feet twitches slightly against the floor. He admits, "'Mall... tw-twitchy, an-an-an' tired... " Kevlan then adds, looking up plaintively, "An'... Ah-Ah-Ah jes'... jes' feel l-l-like bawlin' 'bout e-ever' l'il th-thang... " Tamber as if by reflex begins to answer, before silencing himself with a bit of an effort. He blinks rapidly a couple of times, his head nodding forward slightly. Your thoughts often turn to your claim sites. Non-singers around you see: Kevlan appears to be daydreaming. Nathan licks his lips slowly, appearing to be thinking about that 'bawling' remark. "I am not at all surprised... It's a fairly common aftereffect in people who've gone through some very awful stuff. It's perfectly normal, Kev." Tamber agrees drowsily, "Quite... ", then shakes his head rapidly for a moment. Nathan's head snaps around. "Tamber, when was the last time you've gotten some sleep?" Kevlan doesn't notice his friend's apparent distraction, as he peers at Nathan timidly - then, Nathan's remark makes him blink. Tamber blinks, as well, and blushes, very slightly. "Last night... I can assure you. Aria has spoken with me... " Kevlan's brow furrows, and he suddenly looks very worried - the appearance of a child who's just been told that his mother or father is sick. Nathan raises an eyebrow. "I suppose. All the same, would you like to trade places with Kevlan here, and stretch out for a bit?" Tamber adds ruefully, "It was a few hours. Yes... " He mutters this, sounding almost as if he's trying to remind himself of the passage of time. Nathan's suggestion makes him look longingly at the bed. Kevlan suddenly wobbles to his feet, moving to Tamber's side. Awkwardly, he tugs at the Sorter's hands. "Nap," he entreats. Nathan nods at Tamber. "Yes, do. We'll keep our voices down." Tamber, between Kevlan's pleading gaze and Nathan's clinical one, blinks again. He mumbles to Kevlan, "Galahad, dear boy, do not fret... I am only tired... " He lets Kevlan move him, though, and lowers his lean frame down stiffly. The pull of your claims is stronger now, and you think of them more often. Non-singers around you see: Kevlan appears to be daydreaming. Kevlan bites at his lip, as Tamber lies down; in moments, the Sorter's eyes have dropped shut, though the strained look doesn't quite vanish from his finely drawn features. Almost blankly, Kevlan keeps staring at Tamber... Nathan stands up, guiding Kevlan to the 'invisible' chair. "He'll be all right, he just needs a bit of sleep." Kevlan starts, and blinks at Nathan dazedly, then seems to remember where he is. He finally gives a shaky nod. Nathan draws his chair closer to Kevlan's, being careful to not let the legs scrape across the floor. He resumes his seat, lowering his voice so it does not wake the sleeping Sorter. "You were telling me how you feel high strung and nervous... and very easily upset," prompts he the Singer gently. Kevlan gives Tamber a look for a moment that suggests seeing him in such an exhausted state is enough of an excuse to burst into tears right here, but Kevlan does not cry. He does nod slowly, though, unconsciously shifting on the invisible chair, as he tries to keep from looking at it and fearing he'll fall to the floor. Nathan makes a wry face. "I'd offer to turn off the projector, but the damned thing's jammed." Kevlan looks uncertain how he should react to that, and finally hastily nods again. Nathan looks expectantly at Kevlan, then smoothes his face into a professional mask. The last thing he wants to do is make Kevlan feel pressured. Kevlan finally mutters shyly, "Ah-Ah-Ah ain't s-sure what Ah-Ah-Ah... s-should say." Nathan smiles. "Dear boy," says he, unconsciously mimicking Tamber, " there's nothing you *should* say. You say things that you *want to* say -- my job so far is to listen." Tamber, on the bed, turns his head slightly, the slight frown of his mouth speaking of difficulty reaching true slumber. But his eyes remain closed, as he dozes, tired enough to do that. Kevlan wrings his hands, then kicks one foot a little, and says, "Ah... Ah-Ah-Ah ain't.... s'posed t' be like this." He frowns worriedly, vaguely. Nathan licks his lips again, aware that he's walking a tightrope. "What are you supposed to be like?" Kevlan pushes a slightly unsteady hand through his disheveled hair, making his plaintive eyes more visible. "N-n-n-not... frettin'... s-s-s-scared... " Nathan nods slowly. "Kevlan, I think it's all right for you to be scared. There are kinds of stress which no one could endure, not even the original Galahad himself -- and what you went through was one of those." Kevlan blanches, his mouth tightening, and he looks uncomfortably at his lap. Nathan leans forward, his voice so soft it can barely be heard. "Kev... look at me." Kevlan obeys, hesitantly. His gaze has turned haunted. Nathan begins speaking softly but firmly, holding Kevlan's gaze with his own. "Kev, the reason you feel like crying at every single little thing is that there is a huge thing inside you which you still have not cried about. There's this block of pain inside you, and as long as you hold it inside you will keep cutting your soul to shreds. Let it out. It will go no farther than this room, I promise you. Let it out." You don't hear resonance in your body anymore, somehow this almost bothers you. Non-singers around you see: You feel concerned when you see Kevlan pace and become more and more irrational. Kevlan, trembling now, doesn't say anything during any of that, nor for several moments after. His mouth shivers with the effort of talking for several moments more, before he eventually blurts, "Ah.... Ah-Ah-Ah cain't!" Nathan takes a deep breath, fighting to keep his voice calm, quiet and assured. "You can. I'll help you." Kevlan swallows hard; his eyes have dampened, with the threat of tears. "C-c-c-cain't thi-think 'n-nit. Hurts. D-d-d-don' wan' 'member... " Nathan moves over, awkwardly hugging Kevlan's shoulders across the arm of the chair. "Let's try together, OK? Remember, I'm here, I'm with you. You're safe now, nothing can hurt you..." Kevlan fearfully nods, after flicking a wide-eyed gaze to Tamber and seeing the Sorter still exhausted, still prone - no comfort there. Kevlan ventures in a tiny voice, "'K-kay... " Nathan nods slowly. "Okay. Now start by telling me about how you got to Hesperia." Kevlan shifts nervously, mumbling, "W-w-w-with Tamber. F'r th-th' G-G-G-Guild." He abruptly blushes, and looks down again. Nathan nods. "Yes. That's good. That's very good. Relax and let the story flow. What happened next, once you actually got there?" Something seems to have already disturbed Kevlan about speaking of this... his voice remains unsteady and hoarse as he answers, "W-w-we was w-w-waitin'... f'r Miz L-Leandrika... b-b-but she nev-nevah showed up... " Nathan takes another deep breath. "And ... then what?" Kevlan continues, "W-we jes'... waited... an-an' looked at stuff... " He trails off uncertainly. Tears start to well in those blue eyes again - evidently, you've just made Kevlan remember something else. Nathan does not say anything -- he in fact does not look like he'd trust his voice at this point -- but manages to look expectant. Kevlan finally confesses disheartenedly, "Ah-Ah-Ah m-m-missed Berni awful b-bad... 'c-cause she... l-lef'.... " Kevlan shudders, curling his arms around himself. "....sh.... she... din' wanna mar-mar-marry me....!" These last few words creep out of Kevlan painfully, and with them, he starts scrubbing a hand across his eyes. Nathan at the mention of Bernadette's name closes his eyes and gives one brief, violent shudder. When he opens his eyes again a professional mask of concern has slipped over his features. "I know ... that's awful hard, isn't it." Kevlan sniffles, managing an awkward nod. If he notices your distress, he doesn't show it. "What happened then?" prompts Nathan gently. It's obvious that that can of worms is something he wishes to avoid for now. Kevlan stammers, "T-Tam w-w-w-wanted t-t'... teach me." Nathan blinks. "Teach you to do what?" asks he with a slightly puzzled look. Kevlan scrubs that hand across his eyes again, and mumbles something that you _think_ is, after editing out all the extra stammered consonants, "'Bout how t' act Singerly" - which makes Kevlan turn crimson again. The pull of your claims is stronger now, and you think of them more often. Non-singers around you see: Kevlan seems to be distracted. Nathan, after a valiant effort, succeeds in suppressing a chuckle. "That sounds like Tamber, all right. What happened next?" Kevlan's arms curl around him again. He begins to tremble. "Th-th-then Tam tr-tried t' figger out... h-how come we wasn't... doin' nothin'.... " Oddly avoiding mentioning the crystal installation, Kevlan instead turns paler, and his voice weaker as he whispers, "An'... th-th-they came... 'n' t... took... took me... " Kevlan clenches his eyes closed, and tries to huddle in on himself, nearly falling off the 'invisible' chair. Nathan says "Oh, fardles..." in a very small voice... Crash. Kevlan falls sideways, making Tamber jerk up out of his doze. The Sorter blinks dazedly, muttering, "Kevlan...?" Nathan literally picks Kevlan up and puts him in *his* chair. "There. Should have though of that a long time ago. Dumb, Nathan, dumb..." Kevlan whimpers, his face soaked with tears now, "D-d-don't make me 'member... pl-please... Ah-Ah-Ah don' wanna 'member... Ah-Ah-Ah wanna stay inna tree... please... " Tamber rolls awkwardly onto his side, frowning as the commotion penetrates his admittedly erratic awareness. "Nathan... Kevlan... wha... " Nathan grabs a spare blanket from somewhere behind Kev and drapes it over the Singer's shoulders. "Sssh. We'll take a break now, let you calm down..." Tamber breathes, green eyes widening, "My word... K... " He doesn't even finish the word, as he freezes, half-sitting up on the bed. He looks wide-eyed and inquiringly to Nathan. Kevlan clutches at the blanket, ducking his head in shame as he sobs. Nathan spares a single glance for the Sorter, a glance which says eloquently -- "Help." He kneels before the Singer's chair. "It's all right to cry, Kevlan. It really is." Tamber wordlessly scrambles off the bed, and to Kevlan's side. As gently as he can manage, Tamber frees one of the younger man's hands; promptly, Kevlan clutches at his offered fingers. Kevlan pleads hoarsely, "Ah-Ah-Ah-Ah don' wanna 'member that.... please....!" Nathan sighs, closing his eyes, his breathing ragged. "All right. We won't, then. Not yet." Tamber strives mightily to look composed, as he whispers soothing nonsense to Kevlan, trying to get him to calm down. Kevlan eventually does calm - or at least, he stops crying, though his eyes by now are blotched and reddened. Tamber reaches up to smooth his hair, almost as if Kevlan were a child, and at last, the Singer settles down. Tamber finishes by admonishing Kevlan firmly, "Do not apologize, dear boy, for breaking down. Nathan is right... it is alright to cry. We do not hold it against you. We promise." Kevlan flicks a timid glance between the other two, and ventures a single nod. Nathan nods at Kev, takes a few deep breaths, trying to calm down himslef, and finally motions for Tamber to follow him to the other end of the room. "Kev... I just need to talk to Tamber for a bit. We'll be right here. OK?" Tamber echoes that assurance, getting Kevlan to nod. The Sorter then pats his shoulders, and turns to slip off with Nathan, though he mutters, "The boy _does_ have a Singer's hearing, you know... " Nathan stops dead in his tracks. "I hadn't thought about that... this is a problem. What do you suggest we do?" Kevlan clutches at the blanket around him, frowning vaguely - well within earshot across this room, smaller than his own suite. Tamber says, consideringly, "We could talk if he were asleep." He stresses that word slightly, though whether it's because of his own lack of rest is difficult to guess. Tamber adds, a little ramblingly, "Or if you wish, I can fetch Jerrik to stay with him... " Your thoughts often wonder to the pleasant memories of crystal in your hands singing softly to you. Non-singers around you see: Kevlan appears to be daydreaming. Nathan grins. "Fetching Jerrik is a concept, but being a meditech hath its privileges. I can page him from here." Nathan crosses to the wall console, taptapping at it. Tamber nods quietly, and turns back to Kevlan, telling him gently, "We are going to get Jerrik to stay with you, alright, my lad? You need not be alone, then, while Nathan and I talk in private." You hear a quiet tone on your wrist unit, and then a voice says, "A message to all on Ballybran from Nathan: Sledtech Jerrik Rawn Deegan, please report to Meditech Nathan's suite, floor 2.". Kevlan sniffles back a few remaining tears, and forlornly nods. And after a short time.... You hear a soft chime and an electronic voice announces that Jerrik is in Meditech's Quadrant and is knocking on Nathan's Suite. (To respond: '+answer Out=') To Meditech's Quadrant, Nathan calls out, "Come in!". Jerrik steps in from the hall. Jerrik has arrived. Nathan smiles. "Jerrik. Good to see you. Would you do Tam and me a favor and stay with Kevlan for a little while?" Jerrik steps in somewhat reservedly, flicks a smile at Tamber, and a slightly worried one to Kevlan. "I wasn't far away," he remarks, almost wryly. His black eyebrows rise, but he nods. "Sure." Tamber murmurs, "I shall explain later," as he lets Jerrik come over to their young friend. Tamber steps aside, and nearer to the door, to wait for Nathan. Nathan nods his thanks and steps out into the hall, sweeping Tamber along in his wake. Nathan steps out into the hallway. Nathan has left. Tamber steps out into the hallway. Tamber has left. Tamber> Meditech's Quadrant Tamber> A light white gold strip runs along one wall. The carpet cushions your footsteps and muffles noise from the lift area, but nothing can block out the sub-vocal resonance from the winds outside. Tamber> Contents: Tamber> Nathan Tamber> Obvious exits: Tamber> Tasmin's Suite Stassia's Suite Kasie's Place Trianne's Suite Daron's Suite Gentric's room Geon's Room Talath's Room Tsia's Suite LEanna's Suite Maximanix's Suite KAtlyn's Suite Lyra's Suite Nathan's Suite Kakuru's Suite Kael's Suite Shakkar's Suite Ruth's Suite Lifts Tamber> Tamber follows you out, and once out of Kevlan's sight, sags a little. Tamber> Nathan turns to Tamber, looking extraordinarily tense and worried. "Am I correct in assuming he hasn't broken down much in your presence?" Tamber> Tamber sighs. "Not... lately, no. Not for a few weeks." Tamber> Tamber allows, "But then... I have not... asked him to speak of what happened to him." Tamber> Nathan nods. "Then I did achieve at least something good." He closes his eyes briefly. "Tamber... settle my mind on something, would you?" Tamber> You say "Surely..." Tamber> Nathan looks squarely at the Sorter. "In your opinion as the one who knows Kev best... would it be better or worse for him if Kevlan was attended by another physician?" Tamber> Tamber blinks, and peers at you more closely. Then, as if you've suddenly confirmed something he has suspected, he answers you softly, "That would depend, dear man, on how well you think you could do the job. You care for him - and you have the training to handle this. I could not object, myself." Tamber> Nathan shakes his head from side to side. "Tamber, please... you're not answering the question. Would Kevlan respond to another physician as well as he does to me?" Tamber> Tamber shrugs lightly. "That, I cannot say. But he does trust you. You helped him before." Tamber> Nathan leans against a wall, looking strangely at the Sorter. "That's... what I thought." HE makes a face. "All right. What have *you* been doing to yourself?" Tamber> Tamber blinkblinks. "I beg your pardon... ah." He sighs, shoving a hand through his hair, though his is much shorter than Kevlan's and not in danger of getting in his eyes. "Kevlan has needed me, as has Bernadette. They both... are becoming strained by the lack of crystal." Tamber> Nathan raises an eyebrow. "May I point out that you're no good to either of them half-dead from exhaustion?" Tamber> Tamber closes his eyes for a moment, and his head rocks forward slightly before he catches himself. He murmurs tiredly, "You would be pointing out what Aria has already taken pains to make clear to me... I... have been trying to sleep, with little success." Tamber> Nathan nods and digs in his medikit, shaking several pills out onto his palm. "These should help. Feed Kevlan one too." Tamber> Tamber points out ruefully, sounding rather embarrassed to be admitting this, "I... am told I am off-duty.... until a medic certifies me fit for work once again." Apparently knowing what the pills are by sight, he nods heavily. "How often, for these?" Tamber> Nathan hmms. "One every eight hours, no oftener than one every four." Tamber> Nathan raises an eyebrow. "And don't think you can wheedle me into certifying you fit when you aren't. You aren't hurting for money, are you?" Tamber> Tamber asks dryly, "For sleep, or for calming?" He almost laughs, at that last. "I sort black for Galahad - at least, when he brings it in." The smile fades, but he shakes his head evenly. "I am not low on credits." Tamber> Nathan nods. "Good. You can take a well-deserved rest. The pills will actually help with both." He pushes himself off from the wall. "Shall we head back inside?" Tamber> Tamber pockets the prescription, trusting that Nathan will note it accordingly in both his and Kevlan's medical files, and nods wearily. Tamber> Nathan steps inside the door leading to Nathan's rooms. Tamber> Nathan has left. Nathan steps in from the hall. Nathan has arrived. Tamber steps in from the hall. Tamber has arrived. Nathan nods to Jerrik, smiling. "Thank you ever so much." Jerrik has crouched near Kevlan, with one eye on the door, and when the other two men return, he rises. Kevlan has relaxed his deathgrip on the blanket, but still looks rather forlorn. Jerrik nods evenly. "Anything for Galahad, sir." He grins encouragingly at Kevlan, who looks back up at him shyly. Tamber, as Jerrik slips him a curious glance, shakes his head slightly, waiting by the door. The Sorter asks Nathan, "Shall we make a second appointment, then...? We are all weary, I think... " Kevlan awkwardly tries to pull tangles out of his hair, as he listens to the talk around him. Nathan takes a few steps across the room, sitting down on the bed. "The second appointment, I think, should be within the next few days. Shall I contact you later with the timing, Tamber?" Tamber inclines his head, as Jerrik turns back to Kevlan, and tells him pleasantly, "C'mon, kid, let's let the good doctor get some rest, hey?" Nathan waves wearily as the procession troops towards the door. Kevlan looks slowly from face to face... and just as slowly, takes the blanket off from around his shoulders. He proffers it to Nathan, timidly. Nathan grins and takes the blanket. "Thanks, Kev." Jerrik blinks, then smiles, and lets Kevlan rise unsteadily to follow him. The Sorter and the Sled tech and the Singer then depart. [End log.]