Log Date: 7/9/96, 7/10/96 Log Cast: Rayek, Ktai, Tilia, Petalwing Log Intro: Moons have passed since Tilia has barred Rayek from entering the Palace... and although he has had an initial burst of hot, angry temper over it, Rayek has since fallen into despair. Still refusing to confront Tilia over the matter -- for he refuses to fight in the Palace's halls, and he does not understand what Tilia wants or needs of him to retract her own anger -- Rayek throws himself into whatever tasks he can find outside the High Ones' home. But Ktai, now that she's been healed by Mender, has her own ideas about how to give Rayek comfort.... ---------- From above, a few rocks fall loosely in as two feet make themselves seen in the stairway. Is Rayek down there? He's not prowling around above, at least. And unlike the last time you peeked down here, there are actually faint sounds of stirring. They halt a moment at the dropping of the rocks. The feet step carefully down, albeit a bit heavily. A soft muttering can be heard, but not understood. Lightly comes a send. ** Rayek? Are you down here? ** Neutrally, his tone comes back, voiced rather than sent. "Yes." ** Ah... good... I couldn't remember if you ate cooked meat or raw... so I cooked some... and got that annoying yet helpful bug to wrap the rest... I found some bushes nearby with what seem to be edible berries... ** Ktai comes into view, a wrapstuffed bundle under one arm, and both hands holding a myriad of leaves with food on them. Rayek sits on the stone floor near the sleeping niche, his ragged tunic in his hands. He appears, of all things, to be trying to mend it. As you come down into view, he glances up. Ktai moves closer, offering the leaf-banquet. ** I hope there's something you like on here... ** Her eye catches the mending, yet she says nothing, only lowering the leaves to you. Rayek blinkblinks, and stares at you, yellow eyes slightly widened in bafflement. "Wh.. this is for what?" Ktai smiles a bit. ** For you, gentle friend.... hunting is not unknown to me... ** She sets the leaves down beside you. ** Please... if there is nothing that you like there, tell me, and I shall try to find it. Otherwise, enjoy it... ** Rayek's gaze flicks over the offerings, perhaps unseeingly, and he returns his attention to methodically running the sliver of stone and the thong looped around it along the worn place in his tunic. "Thank you. I am not hungry." Ktai opens her mouth, then closes it again. ** Oh. Well, I suppose it can keep... ** She moves to set the wrapped bundle near the foot of the stairs. Again, his tone is neutral, as he answers, "Petalwing's work is sound. Food will keep in the wrapstuff." Dark eyes glance over. ** Rayek... what is wrong? ** She sits on a step, almost afraid to draw near to you. Ktai looks at you for a moment. Rayek says without looking up from the laborious and methodical pace of his needle's dance, "Nothing's wrong that hasn't always been, and that is within my power to fix." Ktai sighs softly. Well, this is more like him... ** I wanted to thank you, Rayek... ** She looks down, picking up a lock of her hair and twisting it to and fro nervously. [Rayek stonily dismisses Ktai, who retreats without protest. But Rayek must emerge eventually, and after some time, when he does get hungry, he floats up and out of the stone shelter under the ground....] In the near distance, the silk-clad female seems to be crouched over, working with something. Rayek, as he emerges, blinking slowly in the Daystar's light, scowls at his surroundings. He's got his spear with him, and is wearing his mended tunic. The 'accursed' female's back is towards him, bless the High Ones, so she does not notice his emergance. She works quickly and silently with something unseen. Rayek hovers there over the sheltered stairway down into the rock, and frowns. Ktai's back? Well, he hardly has say over where anyone goes, these days. He turns in mid-air, and angles off towards the west. He's got hunting to do. Perhaps as he rises, he will see Ktai working on a kill... it looks large... Rayek blinks, and glances down once more at the tall female. Hunted already, has she? He ponders this a moment, then shrugs, expression settling into a stony mask. No matter. Ktai works efficiently, breaking the kill into workable bits, wasting little. The fat gets tossed towards a wooden plank, the meat to another piece of wood. She's obviously got a plan. This strange behavior on Ktai's part makes him pause, thinking that he should probably ask what she's doing. But something in him shies away from the effort of asking -- to ask requires that he break his shell of solitude, and this he does not want. Instead, he floats off over the western slopes, scowling to himself, gaze distant. Time begins to pass... The airwalker is gone for some time. Only when the Daystar has noticeably shifted position overhead does he eventually float back into view, but now, he is rumpled, dirty, his brown face sheened a bit with sweat. One thing that hasn't changed, though, is his absent, bleak expression. At this point, Ktai has started a fire and is doing multiple things... cooking, drying, even seeming to boil something. She works relentlessly, her hair tied back with a thin leather thong. Exhausted -- for his hunt has been fruitless, if indeed hunting was what he was doing -- Rayek lands, and stares in numb startlement at the activity in which Ktai is still engaged. So busy, she is, that she does not look away from her tasks, turning meat that is in the fire, checking the drying meat by the fire... adding more fat to the 'pot' that sits boiling. Rayek stares, dully. This kind of work he hasn't seen in... well, since the last time he was regularly in Sorrow's End. Finally, blankly, he barks, "What?" Ktai pauses, looking up, a questioning look in her eyes. ** Pardon? ** Rayek glimmers a little, as if he's floating, though he isn't actually off the ground. He has one hand gripping his spear, and if you didn't know any better, he might well be using it for support. He squints at your handiwork, waves his free hand, and repeats wearily, "This. What is this? Is the entire Sun Village coming here?" Ktai blinks, pondering briefly. ** Not that I know of. Have they? ** She tosses a bit more fat to boil. Rayek scowls, tiredly, and flicks his hand by way of a shrug. Fine; if Ktai wishes to avoid answering his question, so be it. "I do not know, and I do not care," he growls, and turns to make his way down into his chamber. ** What has you so bent out of shape, hm? You simply cannot expect me to lazy about and not do any work, can you? ** "What you do is not for me to decree." And with that, Rayek steps stiffly down into his dwelling, walking, for once, rather than floating. Underground Dwelling(#7227RAFJ) A bizarre chamber to be found underground, particularly in the World's Spine Mountains, this place is completely incongruous with the stark terrain outside. Clearly too regular to be a natural cave, it has been snugly shaped by some loving hand, from the small fountain bubbling up from the middle of the floor, to the niches in the walls where at night crude candles cast pale glows, to the delicate and fanciful shapes that adorn the walls. On the northern wall is a larger niche where sleepfurs have been piled, perhaps big enough for an elf or three to rest. The only way out appears to be a stairwell that spirals prettily up through the stone. Obvious exits: Stairs Ktai locksends ** Little you know, gentle one. ** You locksend to Ktai, Rayek doesn't answer you; if he heard your sending, he gives no sign. Ktai locksends ** Suit yourself, gentle one... High Ones know I can do nothing to change that... for all I have tried... and failed. ** You locksend ** ** to Ktai. Ktai locksends ** Oh, Rayek. I'd tell you that I love you... but I can't expect that to change your mind towards me... ** You locksend ** ** to Ktai. Ktai locksends ** I'm sorry... I didn't mean to hurt you... if you want... I'll leave... ** You locksend ** There is no reason you should leave the Palace's environs. It is Home. ** to Ktai. Ktai locksends ** I have no home... I never did. ** You locksend to Ktai, Rayek sends back, as if by rote, ** The Palace is Home to all... no reason you should leave. Doors open in welcome to all elves... ** His words ramble. From exhaustion? Ktai has arrived. Rayek has lain down -- or perhaps collapsed -- into the niche of sleeping furs. His spear lies discarded on the floor, near the quietly bubbling fountain. She moves slowly in, a newly wrapstuffed bundle in her hands. ** Listen to yourself, Rayek... do you feel anything behind those words? Or are they simply something that you have said for far too long? ** He doesn't twitch, nor does he raise his ead. ** Perhaps if I keep sending them, they will become true... ** She sets the bundle down and moves closer to you. ** It doesn't work. I know it doesn't. I've tried. ** Rayek remains where he lies, sprawled face down in his sleepfurs. "Good," he mutters. "You've noticed, too...." ** Hm? Noticed what? ** Cool hands gently touch your back, massaging lightly. "That you can't put truth into words," Rayek mumbles, "when there is no truth to be found. Comfort to know I am not slipping, again..." Slow and gentle, the cool hands attempt to bring some respite to your back. ** And so one tries to make it home, wherever one finds themselves... it isn't easy... nor inclusive to peace... but it is a way of life. ** A cool damp cloth is placed at the back of your neck, and the cool hands return to massaging. One wonders whether Rayek's entire slim body has turned to rock; the back of his neck certainly resembles it, from the way the muscles under his dark skin seem knotted to the touch. He inhales briefly in startlement as the cloth touches his flesh, though. The cloth gets turned to a cooler side, and then the gentle massaging resumes. Rayek, it would seem, is not ill; his skin has no sign of heat, not even an unusual warmth, much less the dangerous heat he suffered when you last kept him regular company. But he is clearly exhausted, and he sends a vague sense of bemusement at the brush of your hands. ** Hm? What now? ** The cloth is removed, then replaced again, cooler. The soft massaging continues. ** Rayek... please... tell me what bothers you. If it is your wish I will keep it forever locked away... as I have kept many things over the years. ** [And meanwhile, in the Palace, where the Preserver Petalwing flits...] Tilia steps in from outside. Tilia moves away from the huge stone structure nearby. Tilia has arrived. Entry Hall(#8823RAF) High-ceilinged, airy, this chamber widens out from the doorway that serves as its entrance from outside to an expansive room, filled with little more than strangely ornate walls and the occasional column, rising up to the ceiling far overhead. Closer inspection of the walls reveals patterns shaped into their surfaces, sometimes of wings, or flowers, or the lithe forms of elves -- and sometimes of images that defy description. The air is full of a subliminal shimmer that plays at the edge of elfin senses, a tingle that feels welcoming even in its eldritch oddness. A long winding stairway twines its way up out of this chamber and into the upper heights of this place; you might be able to find other ways out of here, but the only other exit in immediate sight is the archway and doors that lead outside. Contents: Tilia Bright Green Tent(#9206JOes) Black Spiril Obvious exits: Corridor Winding Stairway Doorway Petalwing flitters in the entry hall, then. Tilia glances at the bug's boundering about and gives the Spiril another troubled glance. Petalwing comes zipping around a column, and blinkblinks, then pipes gamely, /Hello, highthing!/ Tilia nods a reply. She stops and watches the flittering about for a while longer with a pensive and troubled expression. In short, nothing new. But this one has a more immediate and comprehensible goal. "What do you eat?" Petalwing blinks at that, and quirks its little head. /Petalwing like juiceberries,/ it says, /and sparklewaters./ Tilia says "You have your nose out in the flowers half the time like a buzzbee." She continues her diatribe as she pulls at a pouch by her waist. "I was thinking you were drinking the dew, or the nectar, or whatever flowers make in there all day." Petalwing says sagely, /Petalwing go to thickgreen place for flowers! Is long way! Go for sparklwaters, too!/ Tilia glances in her hand, deposited something small from the pouch and tosses into the high vaulted ceilings of the Palace a single bright red berry. Petalwing oohs! /Highthing find juiceberries, too?/ Tilia mutters, "This is a long way from anywhere." Petalwing flitflits, a bit, considering. It then chirps, /Is Homeplace. Is good./ Tilia watches the arc of the berry as it lands against the stone floor with a curious not-sound. Tilia licks her lips, eyes the bug, and pops the rest from her hand into the one place she knows it won't go to waste; her mouth. Petalwing giggles playfully, zipping briefly with the berry that's thrown and then up again. /Petalwing go for juiceberries again soon./ Is that a glitter of intelligence in the bug's colorful gaze? /Littlegruff highthing go too?/ Tilia shakes her head and sits on a low step, ferrying some more berries from her pouch to her lips, one at a time. "Someone has to stay here." Petalwing hovers about, watching the elf cannily. /Highthings here,/ it points out. Tilia mms, just a noise, and stares out through a wall. "The difference is living here and taking care of here." Petalwing alights on a delicate bit of wall sculpture, probably some fancy of Ekuar's, and chitters, /Homeplace needs highthings!/ Tilia nods, looking about. "That too." Petalwing suggests wisely, /Move Homeplace to highthings!/ The reaction is complex, a slight motion in her shoulders, the set of her jaw, but mostly it is in her eyes, widening and hardening, then burning away to something external. She looks away from any possible gaze. Petalwing shrugs airily, and flits to play with a dapple of light cast down from some upper reaches of the Homeplace. Tilia says "No." The voice is somewhat whispy. She clears her throat. "No. I cannot ... cannot fly the Palace." Petalwing does a loop in the air, apparently chasing its own shadow in some kind of Preserver game. It halts, then, and notes, /Sharpdark highthing fly Homeplace with littlegruff highthing, but sharpdark highthing no come in Homeplace, littlegruff highthing say nonono! So littlegruff highthing get other highthing move Homeplace, or bring other highthings to Homeplace, if littlegruff highthing lonely?/ Tilia doesn't seem to notice that the bug has gone on for some time without a trill, and on one topic at that. A day for confusion or celebration, or both. But not here. "I don't think anyone else /can/ move it." [And back with Rayek and Ktai....] Rayek's shoulders bunch under your hands, as though the thought of an appropriate answer disturbs him. He sends at last, tiredly, ** I have no purpose. ** The cool hands massage gently as the cloth turns over again -- the first indication that you have seen of her levitation returned to her. ** Then make yourself a purpose. ** Rayek twitches a hand in a gesture that's probably meant to be sharp and dismissive, but which registers largely as a limp flutter. ** And do what? ** His sending is heavy, weighted, and slightly strangled, making him sound as if he's drowning, mentally. The hands continue gently. ** I could think of a million things... but many of them I have noticed do not seem to agree with you. Perhaps drawing up charts of the evening skies might do... Someone I knew once wanted to do that... but he never got the chance. ** Her send feels sad towards the end, yet it still carries an upward feel. Rayek sends openly ** I want to go to those stars, Ktai, not look at them from here. ** The sending is surprisingly wistful, for Rayek, and surprisingly soft. Gentle hands continue, unsurprised. ** Yet in order to go anywhere, one must have a map. ** For a long time, he neither sends nor says anything, until: ** A... A map... will do no good without the means to make the journey... ** He trails off into silence, eyes clenching, from what you can see of his face, tightly shut. Pressure, from the two hands, then a soft puff of breath on your ear as her warm lips kiss your ear. ** If you can dream it, you can do it. I will help you as best as I can, Rayek. ** Rayek's hands clench at the furs; you can feel him trembling. She does not move from that crouched position. ** What is it, Rayek? What has you so upset? ** Her breath is frighteningly close to your ear... warm and cool at the same time. Rayek does not look up. But after a moment, his thoughts still bleak and barren, he allows a send: a glimpse of the Palace being the one place where he feels at Home. With this denied him, it is as though an arm has been chopped off his body. Again, a gentle send, mingled with the warmth on your ear. ** So go back. If it is so welcome to all elves, walk back in there. Peace can be made... even if it means aquiescing. ** Rayek says, a ragged edge to his voice, "She has barred it from me. I cannot fight her... I-I will not... it would be of no use..." Rayek abruptly smacks the furs with a fist, growling, "I gave my apology.... what more does she want of me?" ** Ask her, gentle one. ** Again, the light kiss and feathery breath. Rayek whispers, "She will not speak with me..." ** Then speak to her. And if she moves, follow. You cannot hide, gentle one... not any longer... it will tear you apart. Believe me... I have hidden from things... and I know the consequences. ** Her lips kiss softly, again, then one more breath passes before she sits back and massages again. Rayek begins, "I..." His voice roughens, and he tries again, "I... tried speaking. There is... nothing to say." Hearing himself called "gentle" yet again, he starts quivering, almost with laughter, but there is nothing mirthful about what you can see of his face, nor his taut words. ** Then let it go for now... just let it all go. Set the burdens of the world on her shoulders and watch her come round. She cannot do it alone. You could not... no-one can. So let it go. ** Gentle hands continue to massage, and the cloth shifts on its own yet again, cool and relaxing. [Back in the Palace...] Petalwing flitflitflits. Petalwing plays with angling its hat on its little head, and chirrs merrily to Tilia, /If littlegruff highthing have no one fly Homeplace, bring more highthings here! Petalwing fetch highthings?/ Tilia looks dour for a lingering moment, then smiles a bit. "Do you know anyone who could fly the grande Palace?" Petalwing flitters. /Sharpdark highthing!/ it says promptly, then tugs at its hat. /Littlegruff highthing want other highthings though. Petalwing remember./ With that, the bug props its miniscule chin on its miniscule hands, and appears to think very hard. Tilia lets out a tiny, vulnerable sigh. "Yes." Tilia mimics the pose, only without quite so much thought. Petalwing chatters ramblingly, /Softpretty highthing with makebetter hands has many sparklefires, but not fly Homeplace with... brighthair highthing maybe? Or sparklefire highthings in sunnywarm homeplace.../ Tilia chuckles. Once. "Leetah. I hadn't thought of her in ..." her eyes clear, widen, and she sits up. Stunned. Petalwing quirks its head. /Softpretty highthing made makebetter sparkleglow on sharpdark highthing,/ it confides. /Before Petalwing come back to Homeplace with highthings!/ The next words are careful, dripping one at a time through the deceptively high-pitched voice of Tilia, "Could ... you go get Leetah?" Tilia says "Bring her. Here. To visit." Petalwing chatters on, merrily, /Sharpdark highthing fall down icyhole, leg all broke, Petalwing put sharpdark highthing in wrapstuff.../ It breaks off, and blinkblinblinks guilelessly. /Littlegruff highthing want softpretty highthing?/ Tilia says "Y-e-s-s... if she will. Perhaps I will go to her, instead." Petalwing blinkblinkblinks. /Littlegruff highthing say, someone need stay in Homeplace!/ It sounds confused. Tilia stands after a moment's time. "Yes. Or no." She starts up the stairs. Tilia makes her way up the long staircase. Tilia has left. [And back with Rayek and Ktai...] Rayek opens his eyes a moment, and stares blankly out from the niche. "She'll know," he mumbles. He does not sound relieved. You sense in a locksend, Tilia's send resonates wih the hundreds of tiny backvoices and subconscious spirits that resonate with the Palace. ** Rayek of Sorrow's End. ** Rayek then, abruptly, jerks. ** Rayek? ** Her hands reach around you now, and try to pull you to her. You locksend to Tilia, Rayek's mind is within range -- it can be clearly sensed, when sought from within the Palace. He is to the west, over a few peaks... and tired. Grieved. And, when he hears your call, thunderstruck. ** ... ** Rayek stares numbly into the air, eyes gone round, face so blank with shock that it leaves him looking oddly childlike. Ktai cradles you, rocking gently. ** Rayek? Are you still with me, gentle one? ** You sense in a locksend, Tilia's thoughts seem to arrive slightly before the send itself, a hissing leading up to the shapes in the send, ** I am going away. I no longer anger at you and if you wish to return to the Palace you may. Do not move it. I leave to return, and if I find it gone ... /again/ ... ** the word is noted, punctured with the emotion of hatred and pain that is carried too easily by her rappor with the Palace. You sense in a locksend, Tilia's next send is withdrawn and controlled. ** Then I will be elf no longer. I could not bear it. ** You locksend to Tilia, Rayek sends back nothing except blank shock, and exhaustion. For an instant -- few would be able to catch this from him, but you're one -- it flickers through him that this must be some sort of cryptic mockery, but that flashes out of his thoughts as quickly as it comes. ** I... I will not... ** Rayek abruptly begins trembling more violently, and his eyes turn suspiciously wet. Ktai only holds you quietly, rocking you, sending soothing thoughts. Her lips press against the side of your head, and she closes her eyes. [In the Palace...] Tilia comes down the stairs from above. Tilia has arrived. Petalwing flitflits curiously, watching as the Palace's small mistress returns. /Littlegruff highthing go get softpretty highthing?/ Tilia says "If I can find her. The Sun Village isn't too far, is it?" Petalwing says brightly, /Softpretty highthing in hometrees, not in sunnywarm homeplace! Petalwing saw! Is there with busyhead highthing and growlers!/ Tilia looks about her and nods. "Sun Village is closer. Then I'll worry about where she is." Petalwing bobs its small head. /Sunnywarm homeplace that way./ It points east. Petalwing knows!/ Then it peers more closely. /Littlegruff highthing go by self?/ Tilia says "You said yourself. Hardly anyone here." [And, as Tilia departs from the Palace, back with Rayek and Ktai...] Rayek mumbles, "She... sent..." She hugs you close to her now, a wispy send responding. ** And? ** Rayek sends, blankly, an echo of the words just directed to his mind. ** 'I no longer anger at you and if you wish to return to the Palace you may. Do not move it. I leave to return'... ** Her lips, still pressed to your temple, smile. ** There, gentle love. The door again is open. ** Her breath is cool and soft against your skin, and she continues to rock you gently. Rayek trembles, violently, but after a few moments forcibly stills himself. "Please," he says gruffly, "let me... I must..." Again, the soft kiss. ** Then go, gentle love. The Palace awaits you. ** Her arms hug you briefly, then open. Rayek's mouth tightens as he eyes you, considering your new way of calling him. But then, as if shot from a bow, he suddenly floats, quickly, up and out of the chamber. [Rayek zooms out to the Palace....] Ktai follows on foot, watching you with unreadable eyes. A gentle send. ** Go on... ** Rayek sucks in a sigh, and very quietly, steps into the glimmering hall. Rayek steps through the doorway into the Palace. Rayek moves away from the huge stone structure nearby. [Rayek heads into the entry hall...] Soft sounds of leather against the floor as Ktai follows behind. Rayek pauses there, just into the entry hall, gaze strangely liquid as he takes in the sight of the wide, airy chamber. ** Is it home? ** A purple shape comes streaking down out of the upper reaches of the chamber: Petalwing, shrieking happily, /Sharpdark highthing! Sharpdark highthing back in Homeplace!/ Rayek blinkblinkblinks a bit at the Preserver, something like a smile playing across his brown face. Ktai's lips curl a bit. ** I suppose that is a good enough answer. ** Petalwing lands right on Rayek's shoulder, grabs up a handful of disheveled black hair, and prattles brightly, /Littlegruff highthing get all lonely by self, talk with Petalwing, say she no move Homeplace by self, Petalwing say littlegruff highthing bring other highthings to Homeplace, littlegruff highthing remember sharpdark highthing move Homeplace, but no say to Petalwing but Petalwing know, and littlegruff highthing ask about other highthings, and Petalwing remember softpretty highthing with makebetter hands who do pretty sparklefires on sharpdark highthing when leg all not good!/ Ktai doesn't even try to follow the prattling of the Preserver... just watches Rayek as she stands there silently. Rayek, seeming rather dazed, tries to absorb the little bug's chatter, and finally blinks. "Leetah. Tilia has gone to see...Leetah?" Rayek murmurs, "Leetah... perhaps... yes, this is good..." Still seeming vaguely thunderstruck, he moves slowly towards the stairs, chin lifted a little, mouth slightly parted, as though he tries to drink the very air. Ktai watches quietly, seeming almost amused, really. Finally, Ktai moves towards Rayek and lays a hand on his shoulder. ** Perhaps you should retire to your chamber... and rest within these walls for a bit. ** Rayek blinks? Rest, here? The thought seems alien to him, and as he lifts his strangely full gaze to the taller elf, he breathes, "No... not yet... the Scroll, I mmust see if the Scroll is well, I haven't seen it since the journey..." He trails off, and pleads, "Please... find Ekuar?" Petalwing offers happily, /Petalwing help find moverock highthing!/ Ktai nods briefly. ** Good, Petalwing. Go find Ekuar and tell him the news - slowly. ** To Rayek, she smiles. ** Then lead the way, gentle Rayek. ** [And with that, as Rayek ventures into the chamber of the Scroll of Colors, we end the log.]